First it was a friend of mine asking me about Duffy, a singer I barely knew and then Amber and her “Song of the day…Warwick Avenue – Duffy” post. Now I can’t stop listening, last week it was the Parlotones and the week before it was… well I can’t remember that far back.
So many times people ask me a question I find hard to answer for the main fact that it is so integrated into who I am.
How can I still smile and laugh with abandon after everything that has happened to me, how can I laugh after this last year of my life?
Normally I just look stumped and then make a joke of it, you know me. Deep down though I wrack my mind for the words to explain that it is mostly a subconscious matter. Most days I don’t have to choose to be happy it is just so, some days I do, some days I can catch myself in a slump and then I go stand in front of the mirror, look myself in the eye and force myself to laugh uncontrollably. There is something about seeing another smiling face, hearing laughter and feeling that energy.
Now when I get asked that question I will be able to turn round and tell them to listen to Duffy’s Distant Dreamer for it says what I can never find the words to say.
I am the Distant Dreamer, dreaming keeps me alive. It is one of the greatest qualities that a child has, they are forever dreaming. It is one of the reasons they laugh and smile so much, they have hope because they are still dreaming.
I will always have dreams, I will never let them die. When everything else may seem dark I have the brightest light within me. I have hope.
Distant Dreamer
Although you think I cope
My head is filled with hope
Of some place other than here
Although you think I smile
Inside and all the while
I’m wondering about my destiny
I’m thinking about
All the things
I’d like to do
In my life
I’m a dreamer
A distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
Even when you see me frown
My heart won’t let me down
Because I know there’s better things to come
And when life gets tough
And I feel I’ve had enough
I hold on to a distant star
I’m thinking about
All the things
I’d like to do
In my life
I’m a dreamer
A distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
I’m a dreamer
A distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
Yeah I’m a dreamer
