When life seems so black and white, when the world feels like it’s crashing down and that the end has to be near because there is nothing to live for anymore. When you sit there with a bunch of pills in your left and a bottle of the finest whisky in your right, believe that it is not the end but that in order to appreciate what is about to come your way you have to hit rock bottom and truly feel it through every ember of your being… Continue reading This is your Awakening, not your Ending
I used to get so stuck on this question, people would come into my life and I would start to emulate them. At times I it was unknown to me that I was even doing but then at other times it was concerted. Right from the start I was a blank canvas needing splashes of colour, I felt for the most part without personality as … Continue reading Who am I?
From the second I heard the intro to Angie by the Stones I knew it would be one of those that stay with me for the rest of my life. It holds a special place within my heart… a good road trip song! Angie, Angie, when will those clouds all disappear? Angie, Angie, where will it lead us from here? With no loving in our … Continue reading A song for my heart
Some days I just want to press Fast Forward never mind pressing Pause! Pause? What’s that? Come on, you have to be kidding! Pause? Bugger that sorry mate, catch a wake up and grab a stronger coffee because your current flava isn’t cutting it! Pause? Ok a few times I have sat back and searched high and low for the rewind button but generally that … Continue reading Knowing when to press Pause
Ever walked into a room and there up on the wall sits a photo or painting that is skew. Does it drive you nuts or do you not care?
Don’t know about you but it drives me insane. Perhaps this is just the Virgo in me coming out but I feel forced to correct it with haste. That said I can’t always reach it without finding a ladder first, sometimes they are just too high up for my tallness.
Now lets say you didn’t correct it, you are aware of it and you have a whole bunch of friends over. The whole time everyone is laughing and having fun you are slightly unsettled. Your mind keeps drifting back to that skew picture up on the wall keeping you from enjoying the moment fully. You laugh but it isn’t fully. You smile but it isn’t fully. There is something else on your mind.
If you had accepted that the painting is skew and had peace with the fact that, no matter what, it will remain like that would you be able to enjoy the party more fully? Would you be able to be fully “in the moment”?
Self worth and love are interesting creatures. When they aren’t present things can turn nasty beyond our comprehension, the two silent killers. Think Godzilla with a bit of King Kong mixed in with Anaconda and Winnie the Pooh (sorry Pooh Bear). Monster 1: Nada-del-self-worth I am not worthy of their love I don’t deserve to be happy I don’t deserve the success The success I … Continue reading Slaying the Monsters